Tired

What a ridiculous time to be writing on here! On the other hand there really isn't anything else to do. I have been up and working for two hours already this morning, and it's only 5 in the morning. I actually wasn't even supposed to be working today till 5 but for some reason my shift got changed to 3 in the morning which is very strange since it's been at 5 for the whole year. I'm quite annoyed by the whole thing since no one even told me that the shift had been changed and I ended coming late to work.

On the other hand, I'm up early and working Sabbath morning actually gives me about 4 hours of God time, which is really needed with my crazy busy life. One of the best songs that I'm listening to right now is "It is you" by Newsboys. God is so amazing. Sometimes I wonder how I can make it through life without a more constant contact with him. I really wish sometimes that I could go back to how it was when I was Venezuela. For that one year I relied on God like nothing I've ever done before. I know that some don't believe in God and I have respect that, I myself am not so sure about all the rigid religions out there (including mine), however I can say without that there is at least a God in my life. There are things that I've gone through that can only be explained by the presence of a God. Even if someone could actually prove that heaven did not exist then I'd still have to believe in God because there is no other way to explain things. It is all about faith, and I know that I need something to believe in otherwise this place just seems like one chaotic cesspool. This world isn't going to last much longer, and things are going to get worse than they were in Venezuela. We live in this little bubble here in North America, which is barely camouflaged. It used to bother me that I was watched so much in Venezuela, and that i had to take my passport with me all the time, and I used to tell myself that things were so much better back home, however here we are watched even more than they are down there. The difference is that here it's more sophisticated so we don't notice it as much.